I miss him

I choose to leave Patrick but end up I miss him! What the hell is wrong with me? I like him rite? Than why do I choose to leave him is it because of Fatimah? No way is because of Fatimah I'm no longer angry but than I feel will jealous... Patrick won't find out anything form anybody anymore there won't be any top rumors in the P4s anymore! Not even the teacher's that know about me and Patrick no one will know that me and Patrick already break up they still think that I like him but they are wrong! Haha... They won't find out who I like not even Patrick and the teacher's! But than I still miss Patrick! What should I do??!!